I am not brave…I am just ready

Since I started sharing my story on my facebook page, I have been told many times how brave I am.  But the truth is…I am not brave at all.

Sitting here sharing my story makes me very vulnerable. And anyone that knows me well knows that I am a control freak and putting myself out there is not something I am comfortable with.  But lately I have found myself stuck. I want to keep growing as a person and an athlete but if I keep everything inside as I have been doing then I am only hurting myself.  I knew it was time to get uncomfortable.

I thought it would be really easy to sit behind a computer screen and share my story. Boy was I wrong. I cried my eyes out when I wrote the story about losing my mom. (its on fb but I will make a new post here with the story) It has been almost 23 years but thinking about what happened makes me relive it and that is so hard to go through. Before I posted it on fb I sent it to my friend asking her opinion. I was worried how people would react. I didn’t want to be judged.  But after I shared it I felt like this huge weight had been lifted from me. It led me to share the next part of my story…and then I found myself creating this blog.

We all have a story to tell. It isn’t a matter of being brave or not in my opinion. I think it is a matter of being ready. And I am finally ready to share my story with the world.  All of the pain, the tears, the sadness…and of course the sweat, the happiness, and the accomplishments.  If you have a story you want to tell….do it. Just put it out there or share it with me if you need a baby step….I guarantee you will feel so much better.

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